Being the dominatrix bitch was much more satisfying. At least I could tell myself I was in power and not vulnerable. I've gotten away from that. But sometimes I think a revival of drunken asshole annoymous April who chooses a guy or two at the beginning of the night and exploits him for all he's worth is in order. Might just have to institute that.

I never liked 'the city' per se until I went to the east coast. For the first time, when I was in Philly, I found myself wanting to live in the city. There's a lot of black people in Philadelphia. But we were seeing them during working hours so maybe they're all unemployed. I didnt say it outloud because I was making a big deal about seeing black people in the first place.