What do you do when you realize you're leading your life in the complete wrong direction? What if you're nothing like you wanted to be? You look back on dreams born 4 years ago and the you that generated those dreams. That you and the current you wouldn't even be friends. What do you do then? In fact the old you would throw snowballs at the new you....snowballs with rocks in them. How do you reconcile with that old you?

Why is it so much easier to keep putting one foot in front of the other on the wrong path? when you really should be doing an about-face? The about-face shouldn't be scary....you've been there before. But as soon as you do the about-face, you don't remember which direction you came from 'cause it looks different on the way back. It's scary to realize you don't even recognize what's supposed to be friendly, familiar territory....... where you were safe and successful.

I could pretend the last 4 years were just a recon. But I think I've ventured too far from my patrol base. Instead of observing mayhem from a safe distance, I stripped down and danced naked in the moonlight with it. It's time to get dressed and break contact.